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a slow thank you

02/05/2010
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photography: cindy | quaint handmade |

She who reconciles the ill-matched threads
of her life, and weaves them gratefully
into a single life –
it’s she who drives the loudmouths from the hall
and clears it for a different celebration…
Rainer Maria Rilke

While I’m quite certain that Mr. Rilke and I part ways theologically, his words resonate something within me. I have collected a few ill-matched threads in three short decades –

Threads, that at times, have twisted themselves into a tangled web of doubt and distrust.

Threads that, in my finite understanding of things, clash terribly with the fairytale version of the story I would have chosen.

Threads frayed from constant, worrisome, shifting and stretching.

Threads faded from long soaks in warm salty tears.

Threads I prefer to keep hidden underneath.

But as I grow older, the looks back become more frequent…less frightening. And I’m seeing the lay of the land in a different light. The fiercely beautiful moments of this life I’ve lived woven in and out between the unsightly fibers makes for a sturdier tapestry than the one I would have spun entirely on my own. And somewhere past the confusion and the questions, I’m slowly learning to say thank you.

And I will restore or replace for you the years that the locust has eaten…
Joel 2:25

†Rainer Maria Rilke, quoted in The Attentive Life, Leighton Ford (Downers Grove, IL: InterVarsity Press, 2008), 167.

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7 Comments leave one →
  1. 02/05/2010 2:21 pm

    reconciliation, integration and gratitude are hugely important for me right now…so I love this quote and your reflection on it…a wonderful thread!

    thank you so much for this important work!

  2. 02/05/2010 3:18 pm

    Oh that is gorgeous…the image the words….lovely compostion.

    ~ Thank you.

  3. 02/05/2010 3:30 pm

    luv how u matched up the image and words…

  4. 02/05/2010 6:25 pm

    oh i really appreciate your words today… and the image is just LOVELY… wonderful…

    thank you….♥ kim

  5. 02/05/2010 8:41 pm

    this is such a powerful post and your words ring so true when we can look back slightly removed from difficult times. when we’ve moved past them. they say we wouldn’t appreciate the ups as much if we didn’t endure the downs. i suppose that’s true. thank you for writing such a thoughtful post to accompany our photo. enjoy your weekend!

  6. 02/06/2010 4:47 pm

    i RELATE!!!! you are onto something with your morning rambles, that aren’t rambly at all actaully. i love them. and i love chamomile so much lately. no more caffeine for me for a while. and i just read on the side of the tea box, that chamomile has long been used as a calming agent, yet it does not bring about drowsiness, but rather an ALERT calmness. i could hardly believe it when i read that. i’ve always associated it with going to bed, or having a sick tummy. so i’ve been all about the chamomile lately!!! and feeling calmly alert, or at least hoping for that.

  7. 02/09/2010 4:52 pm

    Ahhh, a soft wise voice to echo through the day……thank you.

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